my new year
3 Jan
Heading into 2011 i was freaked out. 5 minutes before midnight i didnt want 2011 to come. It was unexplained. 2010 was not incredibly enjoyable but moving across the country is an adventure. But for some reason 2011 scared the crap out of me.
I know this is small in the grand scheme of things but i turn 25 this year. (hold back the snickering because of my fetus age). It scares me. I will officially be an “adult.” And my life is no where that i thought it would be when i was in High School. Do i regret the way my life has turned out?
Yes, a bit….but overall…no.
In the passing from 2010 to 2011 i decided that i have already made some decisions to put my life back on the course i thought i would be on when i was in high school and dreaming without a cheque book.
So instead of making many New Years Resolutions I am going to make my goals very simple.
Try and spend this coming year re-aligning my 25 year old life to the dreams i have had since i was young and back-burner because of my people pleasing nature and lack of money in the bank account. Because i know if i continue to go along with life and continue to back-burner these dreams in another 25 years i will regret where my life has landed.
With that said, my new year will be spent trying to figure out how to go back to school in the spring to start an associates (transfer degree) in Psychology. For what i want to do with my life i have a long road of school ahead, but i feel like it is so worth it. And other people have affirmed me in my desire.
so there it is. my 2011 will be spent reconciling my life to my dreams and learning to dream again. learning to dream without the costs running through my mind. Without boundaries that keep my tied down (within reason). And surrounding myself with people who dream and encourage my dreams….or as Chad calls them, “dream catchers”.
