the rescue
i did something that i didnt want to do. i did something that i had promised God that i wouldnt do again. Something that i knew i would regret the second after i did it.
I sinned. I messed up.
When i sin or mess up my first instinct is to isolate and hide….to keep it a secret.
But I know that is not healthy.
So i resisted the urge to hide and keep my sin a secret because i knew that if i did that it would continue to grow and grow and i would keep doing it…because it is in the dark and not in the light, and thats where it grows and festers….
So i confessed it…first to God and then to a few trusted friends that i knew would keep me accountable.
I chose to tear down the wall and share my secret…where i am weak.
as always it is scary. the thoughts running through my mind
they will think i am horrible
i let them down
i cant believe i did that
they are not going to be my friend anymore
they are going to tell everyone
they are going to judge me
but after i told the response on the other end was not at all what i anticipated….
her exact words were
“Love you. Messed up just means allow the rescue. Nothing you can do but allow it in.”
she didnt judge
but, she didnt approve of what i did
she didnt unfriend me
she didnt make me feel like i let them down
she didnt tell anyone
this person simply reminded me that God is my rescue….that i cant save or rescue myself. I cant do enough to rescue myself….only God can.
Rescue is defined as (n) an act of saving or being saved from danger or distress; or (v) save (someone) from a dangerous or distressing situation.
She couldnt rescue me.
I couldnt rescue me.
Chad couldnt rescue me.
You couldnt rescue me.
only God can rescue.
and in that moment of grace and love i felt the rescue of God. His plan to rescue me from where i was…the emotions, the anxiety, the shame, the darkness…he rescued me when His son died on the cross.
But it is our choice to allow the rescue…
girl..
i love watching (reading) the journey that you are on…..
it encourages me…
humbles me….
thankful for you….
praying for you…
we need some moe's
agreed….hmmmm….text me and we will get that set up for sure!
now that was the perfect response!
twas a good one…and one that i will have to remember…cause i know i will mess up sometime.
One of my favorite bible verses is in James. “Confess your faults one to another, pray for one another, that you may be healed”.
Our natural instincts are to hide, when in hiding, we are keeping the healing from happening.
It’s great that you have such a good friend who responded correctly.
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yes…i love love love that verse!! and you are so right because if we stay hiding we cant take the steps to heal and move on because the Enemy has a playday in your mind!!
I am so blessed with amazing people in my life who will tell me the truth yet encourage and love me.
love you….
love you too.
"allow the rescue" — man, that's so powerful.
i need to allow His rescue today. (and every day)
I wanted to let you know how much this post means to me. I struggle to turn my thoughts and feelings into words, written or verbally, and this post sums up so well a few of the things I have been trying to figure out how to say. I admire your courage and honesty to just be real. I identify with trying to hide sin and isolate. I hurt myself, or rather at this point I want to, but have not acted on that in 231 days(daily struggle, but praise God!) I definitely need to let God rescue me. Congratulations on tearing down the wall!