Hurt
We played this video at the end of our message today. I can so relate to it. Here are the lyrics…
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that’s real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar’s chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
I could always relate to this song because of my past in cutting and self injury with the whole “hurt myself today.”
I just wanted to share it with you today….cause man, it messed me up. But it about what you will leave…
One of my favorite songs and this is my favorite version. It is beautiful and sad and amazing and real and stirs something in me every time I hear it. "and you can have it all, my empire of dirt" Aaahh! (insert a sort of short yet loud outburst here) Looking back and seeing where I have come from and where I am at now and what legacy am I leaving. Am I numb? Am I building storehouses for my grain or am I making an impact on this world with what God has blessed me with? Can I get past the mess I have made up until now? I repeat, Aaahhh! This was awesome. Thanks.
Yes, that is the line i love. "you can have it all, my empire of dirt"…that messed with me yesterday….what is dirt and what is eternal?
perspective…
Thanks for stopping by and commenting today.
I didn’t cut, but i did shoot up, for a few years, while holding a normal life on the outside, and hiding the girl that was totally wrecked. I relate to this song too…and i remember feeling those words, and wondering why everyone was leaving me alone..in all reality i was leaving me alone, and refusing to let anyone close enough to look at my pain. Thank you Jesus for saving me, and mostly for saving me from me. Love you Girl! you are awesome!
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Darla, Thank you for being open on here. I am so thankful for God changing me too. I am so excited that i know you and cant wait to know you more. Appreciate your comments!