learning to be lead

I have been married for 2 months. I am a pro. I know everything and am awesome!

riiiiiight!!!!

These 2 months have been great and have flown by. I love married life. i get to live with my best friend. …i mean how cool is that?

The biggest transition (and i am still learning) is learning to be lead.

I am a leader…at least i think i am. I went through 2 years of a “leadership academy” and have lead small groups, helped plan retreats, and am on staff at an incredible church with a vision of raising leaders. I think i am a leader.

Chad is a leader. even more than i am. By God he is my spiritual leader, he is my family leader…he is the leader of me.

As a leader it is sometimes hard to fall under a leader….especially one that does not have the same leadership style as you. He is a leader, but he isnt an outspoken leader….he doesnt come out and say it….but if you listen, like i know how to he is leading.

I am more of a commander….sometimes to a fault….so daily i have to remember that when i stood at the front of that warehouse on a green rug that was our alter i surrendered my right to lead to his. I stepped back and said that as my husband i would trust him to lead me….and more than that i would actually follow him. Daily i have to remember that he really does know best.

So right now i am learning to submit. i am learning to be lead. it is hard. and daily i fail, and daily i think “crap, i did it again.” but it is a process and in a while those days will become further and further away. and i cant wait until that day.

In your marriage what was hardest to learn? What are you still learning?